MOVING~
I'm moving over to blogspot
narcoleptic--.blogspot.com
Help, anyone? Lol...
Btw, if you're on my LJ flist, you don't have to bother 'cause basically, it'll be the same with a bit less content sometimes. XD *snugs*
Krystal fought another battle on 10:38 p.m. at 2005-04-02
Alright, I lied. I’m still alive.
My studies just ain’t doing too well… and I screw things up half the time so yeah. It’s getting to be really frustrating and harder and harder to fucking smile every time someone asks me what’s wrong. So yeah. Don’t ask. I’m just… not doing too well. But I won’t die… yet.
If this computer weren’t in a family common room, I would never leave my room when I’m home, except to eat or to leave the house. It seems that every single time I leave the room and see my parents I end up getting nagged at, scolded at and wtf. It seems that no matter what I do or how I respond nothing seems to satisfy them. I mean, fine, since she says that I can’t blow my top because it’s bleeding rude, I don’t get angry or raise my voice. Then she tells me that that is rude too. WTF?
It’s frustrating. And annoying.
Don’t know what to do anymore. I guess I’ll have to just bite my tongue and stfu. And I have to bring my grades up. So after Nationals, I’m just going to like, hole myself in my room every day after mum comes home from work and study till I pass out from exhaustion or something. (I’m exaggerating.) Hah, not like mum would believe me. Not in a million years.
And you know what rocks? Because I’m not so darn intelligent like some people and have to study really hard (which, admittedly I haven’t been), I can’t say anything about it because she’s darn right. I’m such a loser.
But cut me some slack. I guess it’s too much to ask for a little trust from her.
I’m unreliable and am lazy and good-for-nothing rude girl whom they regret having. Exact words from my father’s mouth. I just love that dude. But hey, sorry dad, I’ve just been finding it so bloody hard to communicate with you without you blowing your top. It seems that you’ve been bloody annoyed with me asking you for stuff lately so right, I guess if it helps, I won’t anymore. After all, you’ve taught me independence since young. Which is precisely why you shouldn’t expect me to go to you with every single detail of my life and then blow your uber short fuse when I ask you for something you are unwilling to do. (I hope you never read this.)
So yeah, I guess… I can’t do anything about it because a) There is truth in whatever the hell they’ve been talking about lately and b) well, they’re my parents. Go figure. I’m such a screwed up piece of shite..
I’m really tired and at night when I just feel like breaking down and crying, I realize that no one would be there for me to turn to and well, basically, crying and indulging in self-pity is completely useless and counter-productive. But still, can’t help myself some times. So I cry, then I sleep and I wake up and start a whole new day with a prayer.
Cycle starts again.
Seems pretty melodramatic… hmmm. Ah, forget about it.
So basically. I’m going through another of those life trials.
If I appear dead, grumpy or like a snarky bitch, give me a tight slap or just ignore me. Hmmm… Same applies for excessive whinage.
Btw, apologies for offensive language.
Gotta get to work now. Wish me luck!
And oh, Good Friday. Anyone wanna go to church with me? ^____^
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No, I'm not about to break down in front of you and cry and wail and fall into depression. I'm feeling perfectly FINE. I'm just annoyed with the current situation. Yes, I'm wierd and I'm crazy...
I do NOT need messages of consolation and blah blah blaaaahhhhh, telling me to cheer up and shite. Not that I don't appreciate it, but you will leave me unable to reply because I will simply roll my eyes and die.
Who understands this entry and understands wtf I'm feeling now and what I'm trying to do, I'll go down right now (even if I have to take a plane) and give you a tight hug and marry you... or not.
Krystal fought another battle on 10:31 p.m. at 2005-03-22
'BouT Me
14.23July.SACPS.
TKGS.2e1.3e9.
Bowler.Editorial board.
Writer.Athlete.
Journalist wannabe.
Mentally unstable.
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Me!
My E-MaiL
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-=][My WiShLiSt][=-
Technology Stuff
[X] A Disc-man
[X] Laptop with an internet connection
[X] iPod
[X] Own phone line
[X] Learn how to make my own layouts
Sports
[X] New bowling shoes
[X] Sports Shoes
[X] Sports bag Thanks Reeve!
[X] Tennis grip (Black)
[X] Nice black cap
[X] Redrill my spare ball
Music
[X] Find my third exam piece
[X] Master the first two
Cds And VCDs
[X] Vanessa Mae's new album
Books galore!
[X] The Cinderella rules by Donna Kauffman
[X] Let’s see you Catch me if you can by Donna Kauffman
[X] The time traveller’s wife by Audrey NiffeneggerMuch laav to Lizzy!
[X] Everything happens for a reason by Kavita Daswani
[X] The love trainer by Julia Llewellyn
[X] Making love, A conspiracy of the heart by Marius Bill
[X] Like water for chocolate by Laura Esquivel
[X] The treasured one by David & Leigh EddingsThanks Ares! *Hugs*
Education
[X] SPH Journalism scholarship!
[X] More than a passing grade for HCL?
[X] Understand my Chem. It's like a hopeless cause anyways.
[X] To do well for everything. A gal can hope
[X] Double Science with History elec and pure Lit HAHAHHAHAHA
Misc
[X] Oh gee, I dunno?To lose weight?
[X] For my dreams to come true?=)
[X] Money?Yes, Money.
[X] Better personality. Like that’s gonna happen!
[X} For my brothers to stop bugging me. That's not gonna happen either, but what the hell.
Writing
[X] Inspiration for writing HP
[X] Complete Mys
[X] Complete 'Substitution'
[X] Ares (Lol!)
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